AquaStell has a girlfriend

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Comment by PensiveGemini on May 21, 2009 at 9:01pm

ha, interesting... i was considering backing off from the astro a bit, not learning more than I need to... I just felt it was too much to think about, especially since it feels like all these squares are against me... but you just lit a light at the end of the tunnel... makes it seem all worth it... I really appreciate (love) your POV... thank you... a friend once told me, all energy is good energy, use it... and I guess I should keep it going...

"Trust me, I'm about as Aqua as they come, and I don't love anything a little bit." Awesome. Hot line, too... sorry, I can't help but appreciate the word choice :-P deep...

Comment by PensiveGemini on May 20, 2009 at 6:46pm

Thank you all for your words! I really really appreciate it...

Aqua7-- "your destiny is to tell your story"-- is that in my chart or a hypothesis? just curious :O) Yea, the tight Uranus square is getting that much more overwhelming lately... it makes me mad how much I feel... how I can't make sense of things... how I could have dragged this on with Aquastell for so long... anywho

AquaLover-- "How do you tell when an Aqua likes you in that special way? They tell you. Simple. Next time I date an Aqua, I'm just gonna ask." lol you're cute... I think I will do the same... if its one thing I've learned is to just speak up more... no need to let things drag on longer than they need to...

AprilAries--- I'm so sorry about your Pisces... that he could tell you that he didn't love you after all that... thank you for sharing your story... i have to work on letting go... sometimes I marvel at how much we can all take, how much we can all go through and still be willing to give love another try... I hope you are happier in your new relationship...

Vovi-- yes, his heart belongs to her, however dysfunctional it is, he is an Aquarius and they can only love a little at a time anyway...

Comment by vovi on May 20, 2009 at 1:04pm

PenGem, Aquamen love women! I can see they would usually run back to their first girlfriend though.There is an Aqua who asked me if he could go out dating others and then come back to dating me.I asked why would you want to come back.He said because I'd realise that you're the only one for me and you're better than them all.I didn't even sleep with him and I felt it unfair for him to call me his girlfriend because I know he has needs.So I told him that I wanted a break-up and he can be with other girl.He would say no and ask if he could sleep with them and then come back to me.I said that was unfair to other girls.He told me his love for other women just like his love for trees but I'm different. He can sleep with them , caress them all night, tell them how beautiful they are and then leave them like the wind.No guilt.Such a scary nature!
However, when I stated my needs clearly,that I wanted a loving relationship but I'll never sleep with him or anyone before marriage.However, if he ever hurts other girls while being with me, I'd leave immediately.He sighed and told me that he'd never do that and he'd stay with me loyally.That it'd be test of his character.
See PenGem, don't take heart too much what an Aqua did to you.I believe he did love you but it could be just his love for women.The one who holds his heart is his on and off girlfriend I'm afraid.Let him go and don't look back.That's the type of woman holds their hearts forever.The ones won't take their BS, know that with or without him, you're still fine.My Aqua told me that I'm so independent and he's so afraid to lose me.Perhaps , he knows very well that I'm fine without him.
Aqualover, they do love universally but they do love personally too.The one that made him feel his feeling, not just observing his feeling of love(that's what my Aqua told me) would be in his heart forever.

Comment by AprilAries on May 20, 2009 at 7:32am

Its just not fair to be left with all of this, as if I came up with all this affection myself... Its so easy to doubt myself in this situation with AquaStell... oh, I guess I read too much into it, etc, etc... but No, that is not fair to me... why did he have to do all those sweet things if he didn't need an outlet for it since he could go back to his ex whenever he wanted?

I feel you. But he did these things because that's simply his nature. It was the same with my Pisces ex. The thing I had the hardest time with was the whys. If he never truly loved me, why was he around all the time, being a sweet and perfect boyfriend? Why did he drop everything to hold me when I went through the loss of my dad? Why did he introduce me to friends and family with such pride? Why did he share his dreams with me and dream WITH me? How could he do all that and then look me in the face and tell me he never loved me? Short answer - because that's who and what he is, period. It's nothing that can particularly be understood, it just is. Your guy has a love for his girlfriend that seems to need to be shaken up from time to time by a fling. I'd bet your guy doesn't know how to treat a girl any other way than how he treated you. He can't be a heartless guy, he can't treat you as a fling, he has to treat you as if you have a place in his heart when you really might not have one there at all. It hurts. I'm still hurt by it. I loved my Pisces ex, and in the end it was all an illusion. It wasn't fair for me and it's certainly not fair for you.

Comment by PensiveGemini on May 20, 2009 at 1:11am

grrr

Its just not fair to be left with all of this, as if I came up with all this affection myself... Its so easy to doubt myself in this situation with AquaStell... oh, I guess I read too much into it, etc, etc... but No, that is not fair to me... why did he have to do all those sweet things if he didn't need an outlet for it since he could go back to his ex whenever he wanted? He wasn't lacking affection, he had HER... he wasn't lacking romance, he had HER, so why show it to me at all??? I certainly didn't make any requests or have ANY expectations so why, why, why, why did he greet me with fruit and whip cream and ice cream and champagne glasses... WTF... why did he lend me his damn books (which I still have and dont know what to do with now!) if he had no intention of seeing me again... he knows he's just going to go right back to her... its what they always do... they break up and get back together... why did he hold me the entire night, so tight, okay, maybe that is just his way, he likes to hold, hug throughout the night, sure, fine, but goodness, it was different... I know I have to let him go and I consider him gone, but I'm not crazy, I'm not delusional, I didnt make this up...

I may sound a bit odd but... its almost like i don't buy it... for example, someone tells you something, the house is blue or something, and everyone around you believes it because, why wouldn't they tell the truth, right? and yet, your not convinced... like, its not that you think they are lieing, but you don't think they are telling the whole truth... that's how I feel about AquaStell... I'm not trying to be romantic about this, I just honestly don't think its fair that I'm left here with all this history between us as if I made it all up...

It's as if we bought all this furniture together... we didn't plan on buying it, we just were consumed by the moment... and I agreed that we should buy it because I thought it would be ours to share because otherwise, what would I do with all this furniture? and then, he goes back to his old house, with his old furniture... what am I going to do with all this stuff? What will I do with the debt of all this furniture? The debt that has taken my heart as credit... and yet at the same time, I don't think he had intentions to take me for a fool... its all so confusing...

ahh well... I'll just have to get over it...

grrrrr just needed to get that out...

Comment by Watergirl on May 19, 2009 at 12:16am

I'm sorry to hear about the Aqua guy, Pisces. :o(
You know, the more i read everyone's stories on here, the more i realize that no one's lives are perfect. Most of us are struggling through, and that's the way life just is. But i'm glad to hear that you're doing some things for yourself, like you say, what else can you do? Take care.

Comment by ChiCa on May 18, 2009 at 10:02pm

Thats nice!